I would like to speak with an open mind here.

Some rumors have been circulating in the past 2/3 days, which I find quite disturbing. Just today, two totally unrelated people told me (in good faith) that they just learned I was resigning.

Since I did not say I resigned, but rather spent a big number of hours last week on the press release for the yahoo agreement, preparation of next week presentations, and discussion on juriwiki-l issue, I do not see very well where this comes from.

So, I call it a rumor.

I do not know who launched this rumor, but I cannot help thinking that this is related to the forthcoming elections, and part of a strategy of some candidates campaigning or others supporting some future candidates.

I think this is very highly improper. I suppose that many games are acceptable when running for an election, but still...

So, I would like to clarify things.

First. I am not resigning from the board. My ethics is such that while I engaged myself to be on the board for one year, I will be there for the full year. I may be there a lot, or not there a lot, or on a wikibreak, but that does not mean I resign.

In one year, I made 3 breaks. One week in summer when I was at my mom's. Two weeks at christmas when I went in Algeria. One week in february to ski... The rest of the time, I have always been there, every day.

Somewhere in february, I expressed my terrible tiredness. I was pregnant, and suddenly, could not handle any more having a full time job during the day, taking care of the kids and husband, spending the night on wikipedia, throwing up several times a day, and being very drowsy from the new life in me growing; Additionnaly, several editors bugged me so much, that I thought of the expression "get a life !".

I consequently expressed my strong desire for a break. Because frankly, as much as I care for the project, there is a point when you think "what on earth am I doing here getting exhausted by buggers, when I should just be having a rest ?".

It could never be, as the next day, I had 3 phone calls... and issues to take care of. However, I made an agreement with myself, to go to bed everyday before midnight :-) I respected it overall.

Two weeks ago, it became obvious something was badly going on with the baby. If only because I was less tired... Last week, I went to medical care where they told me it was very likely dead, and ask me to wait a week. The baby is now gone, and it is hard to say how it feels to lose a life after 3 months. Those who already lived this know. This whole week of plain despair, I was here nevertheless. Because there were things to do.

In a few hours, I will leave for northern europe, to spent a whole week of my real life holidays presenting wikipedia. I am still having contractions. Very likely, you will not hear from me, because I have no portable computer.

That does not mean I am resigning. Right ?

I wish that discussions over next elections start soon and that 2 or 3 people propose themselves for the organisation of them. I also wish that people remember we have the same goal and take care of keeping a decent behavior... such as proving how great they could be as board members, rather than using methods to lower others.

Do I sound harsh ? Sorry if I do. Last 10 days have been hard.

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