I honestly believe many admins are abusing their blocking privileges and that the arbitration committee is not working. Here is what has happened to me. I have written and edited NUMEROUS articles, you can see a list on user:Please Don't Block. Most of these were edited under the name "Noah Peters." In December and January I engaged in a heated contest with several other users over the Abraham Lincoln page, much of which I have written, over whether to include Lincoln's alleged homosexuality on the page. This provoked a long editing war which resulted in the material being deleted. After this, I started editing the "gays in Nazi Germany" article. These edits were in good faith. But one user, Apollomelos, a self-described homosexual, began smearing me with all sorts of false charges, including that I vandalized the Abraham Lincoln page (not true) and that I am a member of the Ku Klux Klan (also not true). I grew very alarmed at these allegations and requested my username be changed to "5440orFight," because "Noah Peters" is my real name and I don't want to get smeared with these charges. Well, the admins were totally insensitive to this desire and referred to "Noah Peters" repeatedly in a derisive way, many branding me a homophobe, and still do to this day even though the username is dead. Indeed, many admins have hurled false charges against that username to this day. For example, my userpage now says, "As Noah Peters he had a habit of reverting pages or removing the texts of others, was warned and switched to 5440orFight and got blocked by an Admin under that name for continuing the same practice." This is completely untrue, and yet whenever I try to change my userpage it gets changed back by some admin, and if I persist in trying to change it I am blocked. Out of frustration with Apollomelos' charges, I had a fit of bad judgment and added the now-deleted "gay" template to various articles. I was promptly blocked by fvw, another homosexual administrator, who no longer works on wikipedia. Frustrated at the fact that my IP username page included charges against me that were not true yet kept being reverted back by various admins when I tried to delete them, I deleted fvw's page repeatedly in retaliation for my own inability to edit my personal page. I also made ill-tempered remarks to other admins who reverted my repeated attempts to delete my userpages. Meanwhile, my efforts to get my username changed have gone nowhere, and I panicked and emailed an admin to tell him to please delete my username; I didn't want my reputation ruined. Then, Apollomelos decides he wants to pursue arbitration against me, taking several of my quotes out of context and embellishing with false charges. I was never informed arbitration was being pursued against me, but it was. Apollomelos has done this to several other users; putting quotes out of context and making misleading edits and over-the-top allegations. He also does not allow edits to the gay-themed pages and smears anyone who changes these pages as "homophobes" if they write anything he doesn't agree with. Read his talk page. In another fit of ill-temper, to combat his own charges against me, I created user:Apollomelos2 and user:Apollomelos3. I can't delete Apollomelos2, even though it was blocked as soon as I created it, it must remain, "Abusive sockpuppet of Noah Peters." Now, whenever I try to get a new username, it is blocked for being an "abusive sockpuppet of Noah Peters." Whenever I try to delete the pages of my old usernames which bear the title, "abusive Sockpuppet of Noah Peters" (never mind that "Noah Peters" no longer exists) and which are now blocked, they are reverted back; I have absolutely no control over them; they must remain as monuments to Apollomelos' false charges and my bad response to them. The admins don't understand why I have to get a new username and instead assume I am creating a username for vandalism. So I can't have a new username. This is really frustrating. It is also frustrating that the "Noah Peters" username has attracted a false reputation for bad and misleading edits when all of my edits under that name, except for some ill-temper that was provoked, was of strerling quality. The latest thing is that I chose the username, Jesus H. Christ III. Refdoc blocked this permanently on account of it being offensive; though if I had known it would be offensive, which I did not (Jesus Christ is a cultural figure too, I didn't know that anyone on wikipedia would care), I wouldn't have damned well picked it in the first place. No one will ever be able to edit under it again unless Refdoc wills it to be so. I can't delete the userpage either; it must be reverted back. I can't delete the false charges against me from any userpage; they must remain because the admins said so. I then picked a new username and complained about my treatment on Refdoc's talk page. His response was to ban my new username for, of couse, "obvious reasons." I have never been able to communicate with anyone on wikipedia; no human interface to explain what has happened, to explain that I have added a lot to wikipedia and want to be forgiven. The first instinct is always to ban me; always to revert without asking me; always to assume my bad motives; never to communicate. I want all references to "Noah Peters" deleted. The username is banned permanently and I want admins to stop damn well referencing it. I want to be anonymous with an anonymous username not smeared as a sockpuppet so I can edit without fear to my reputation. And this process has been hellish for me. This is a community of mistrust and anger, of abusive edit wars, of sarcasm, of contempt; not of support. NP _______________________________________________ WikiEN-l mailing list WikiEN-l(a)Wikipedia.org http://mail.wikipedia.org/mailman/listinfo/wikien-l