[Wikimedia-l] Thanks for all the fish!

[Milos Rancic]

Thanks to all of you! It really matters to know that I will be welcome if I
back and it matters that people who matters to me think that I made an
impact to them and to the movement.

I was unprepared on Amir's mail and I reacted on it emotionally. After that
I realized which kind of emails I could get :)

While reading your emails, I got once more drive to stay. However, that
didn't solve my motivation problem and there is no sense to stay without it
solved.

I am not going to find another movement. When you felt the best one,
everything else doesn't have a lot of sense. Besides that, I would have the
same kind of lack of motivation, or probably worse one.

The problem with my motivation is exclusively my personal issue. Events in
the movement influenced that, but the main portion is related to my inner
issues and I am now quite confident what the reason is, which corresponds
with the second part of 2011.

There is another thing produced by your answers. Since this morning I am
able to imagine myself back, which I wasn't able for months. I feel freed
and able to think that I need a period of time off to be capable to back.

I was thinking yesterday that I need serious reconsideration of my inner
drives, that I need different life to fix my problems. Now I think that I
even have the cure. So, will be back sooner than I was thinking. I suppose
that it will be about months rather than years. (And I feel now a bit as a
drama queen and attention whore, as nobody would notice even a half of year
without my input.)

I am professionally connected to MediaWiki. Thus, I won't be able to
disappear, even it was about my feelings from yesterday. I am reading news
on Portal:Current events and I am occasionally editing English Wikipedia.

I noted Sara's and Manuel's emails about what they are doing. Please,
connect with others who are doing similar things! Partial efforts are
always much less effective. (Sarah, connect with MF-Warburg, he will
continue my work in relation to mapping languages. Manuel, connect with
Sanja from WM RS.)

I am subscribed to so many public Wikimedia lists, that it would require
considerable effort to unsubscribe from all of them. Fortunatelly, I am
using a separate account for those lists. I will not delete but forget it
for the time I will need to remotivate myself.

And to repeat: I will always be happy to help to any of you. Feel free to
contact me.